Juries… are… almost…. here… so many obligations…. homework… ahhh…..
Juries… are… almost…. here… so many obligations…. homework… ahhh…..
Something I always try to keep in mind when someone is treating me with disrespect is: the only reason they are acting this way is because they are hurting inside, there is something in their life that is causing them to be unhappy and so they are projecting this upon me. At least when I am very sure that I haven’t said anything offensive and when I know I have been treating the other person with the utmost respect and kindness. I do not think that it is possible for someone to be unkind towards someone else if they are truly happy with themselves. So instead of being angry, I try to keep calm and instead, feel pity for them.
Though, I have to admit, when I feel so much unkindness around me, it makes me want to retreat into my safe haven of books, music, and my tightly-knit friend group whom I can trust. But I know that to really progress as a person I need to branch out and meet many different kinds of people, in all stages of life with personalities lined up on all sides of the spectrum…
Anyway, just a thought. I feel that writing this post has helped me clear my head a little.
So why don’t we just try being kinder to people? It doesn’t hurt to be friendly, and afterall, there is so much you can get out of contact with different people, even if you don’t know them well. It’s not hard to be nice.
An introvert who sometimes enjoys people.
Alright! I’ve been out of town for the past week (more details will come soon), so I haven’t been posting much (not that I do anyway ahaha). Here is Sheik’s Theme from the Legend of Zelda! Kevin thought it would be a great way to sum up all the ocarina songs we recorded :) Enjoy! <3
Alright, so these are just my personal notes, so they are a bit cluttered, but these are notes I took on Professor Herbert Greenberg’s discussion session on orchestral auditions! I had the wonderful opportunity to be coached by him and attend his discussions last summer at the PRISMA International Music Festival in B.C. Canada! :) Anyway, like I said, I might have misheard some things and these are just my personal and messy notes that I took, but I hope that they may be of some use! :) Enjoy! <3
Camp Notes from Professor Herbert Greenberg
Be a winner.” -Herbie :3
Roberts Wesleyan College Chorale Tour 2014!!!
From February 20-25 I embarked on an epic adventure with the most friendly and amazing choir ever! <3 I got to play some really great music in addition to seeing some very beautiful places while meeting some really incredible people. Here are only a few snapshots of this wonderful trip, but everything that happened in between will definitely be cherished in my memory. <3 I hope I will do something like this again in the future! I really can’t wait to visit more exciting places and experience new things!! :D
Meltdown 2 from Cave Story - KimKev
Whoops! I was on tour for the last five days so I didn’t get to uploading this XD Anyway, here is a really catchy tune from a relatively unknown Japanese PC game!
I haven’t tried it myself yet but I heard it’s really well made and super fun! You can download it for free here:
I’m a total sucker for cute things, especially bunnies, so when Kevin told me that there are cute animals like this in the game, I had to look into it ahaha XD
(Not to mention the main character kinda looks like Ash Ketchum ahaha)
Anyway, thanks so much for listening and enjoy! <3
P.S. Please check out our YouTube channel at:
Good times! :) and the second musical I’ve ever played!
P.S. Notice anything interesting about how I’m holding the violin? ;)
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<3 <3 <3 YESSSSS
Wow. Has it really been this long since I’ve last written? I feel like this is a prime example of how I’ve been treating my time, how I’ve been treating each day. It all goes by so fast. Sure, progress is made, but not very much because I have begun to lose the value of each day, each hour, each minute. I have been merely existing instead of living. Sure, there are moments in which I slow down, take a deep breath and realize, “What am I doing with my life?” But this revelation is quickly lost in the blur of everyday life.
I am a dreamer.
I am an artist.
I can feel it like I can feel the beat of my heart when I walk onstage, but there are times… when that feeling is lost. When I don’t cherish every note I play, when I just try to get through a piece like I’m going through a ‘To Do’ list. I let go of the details. I am losing my DISCIPLINE…
Not only in my playing but in other aspects of life. I have become a monotonous person glued to a routine of unexpressiveness and unoriginality… with such an intense desire to hide my real self… that this desire has turned into a sense of shame. This shame has cloaked my true passions, the passions originated from my vulnerable and precious core… I have hidden my dreams and my real personality from the rest of the world, in order to blend in, because I believed that if I tried hard to be like others, maybe I would have a better chance at success. I have lost my sense of self.
There. I said it. I finally have expressed my mindset from this past half year.
I feel a great change is coming. I am starting to feel more positive, to conjure ideas, crazy ones even. Yes, they have appeared even during the last few months, but now I feel is the time to finally allow them to grow. Now is the time for me to dispel the haze that has prevented the warm and nourishing sun from coming through. People believe in me. They know I can do it. I just need to let myself, no MAKE myself believe it too.
I am so glad I took these last two days to just sit and think. (Even though I have a voice in my head screaming constantly, “This is a waste of time!”). But I really needed this. I needed to think, to dream. and now, I intend to make things change.
For real this time.
No turning back.
I need to work harder, yes, spend MUCH more time in the practice room, and approach music from now on with honest, and clear intentions.
What I want to do is to reach a point where I sacrifice my own comforts to do justice to the music. The music should hold a much higher place than my concerns about technique. I need to develop the determination, diligence, and most importantly, the DISCIPLINE to get to a point where technique will not get in the way of my interpretation.
It’s not even about proving something to someone anymore, I believe that this idea has been holding me down instead of motivating me.
It’s not about impressing people either.
It’s so simple. The ‘ideal’ mindset.
It’s about the music.
…what it conveys, expresses, what it makes the listeners feel, think, do.
I need to think about music more on this level.
Then maybe… I will be able to break out of this cage and soar higher than I’ve ever deemed possible.
Yes, yes, this is an uber personal post. Maybe I sound like a spoiled, whiny music school kid stuck in a small world with small worries in proportion to what’s going on in the rest of the world. Or like someone that is biting off more than they can chew when it comes to their goals in life. Not to mention I’m not the best writer. But, these are my honest thoughts, straight from the heart. You may not agree with me on my ideas, and that’s totally okay. My hope in posting this is maybe that someone who is in the same slump as me in their personal progress, maybe will glean something from it. Or maybe for others to be entertained by my naivety. Anyway, this is what it is and I feel like it’s an important part of my blog because I believe that it is a direct snapshot of my heart.